Growing through the pain| More than Makeup | Life Introspection

I did my makeup in the attempts to erase the pain that my heart and spirit was experiencing. However the pain and the tears could not be covered up.


  It finally happened, however not the way I wanted it to.  Funny how life works, I make the conscious effort to improve the quality of my life and bam, life hits me with a major life hurdle. It feels like I got hit by a mac truck after I got the news. That I was in no way ready to accept responsibility for at this time.


I just wanted to get through all

of this bullshit and I can't manage through the storm. No matter how much I try to hurry situations up. It seems as though it still does not move any faster or things come to a dead stop. The pain is to great to deal with and yet I have to go through it. However, the more I just go through it I fail to learn the lesson that was intended for me in the first place. 

The lessons that I need to learn; I add value to any one's life that I come into, lack of respect is a deal breaker, I create my own happiness and if you do not add to it you are gone, and I am worthy of happiness and love.  

And until I learn these lessons I will be repeating the mistakes of past for years to come. 






Afrikah